the truth shall set you free...

hello...how are you....I am uncertain...are you....are things going well with you...do you have someone to cuddle with...to tell you stories...to cook with....to take long walks and explore your city with...i hope you do...everyone needs that...i used to have someone to do those things with...to kiss...to hold...to caress...and now that someone has someone else to do that with...it warms my heart at the same time it breaks it...but one persons happiness is another's misery...i sometimes ponder about suffering...about good things happening to certain individuals often or not...i almost always have someone to do those things with...and yet i know others that almost never have someone...I may have had a few deep close intense relationships...but they are all over now, breaking my heart...and they all have taken from me lessons and improved and grown as women, and are now using what they learned with someone else...we all had each other at one point, but we were not right together...there was someone else suffering, heart broken, missing you in their life...of course not all my past loves have found their soul mate, but soon they will...they will fall in love and get married and have children and i will be nothing more than a short paragraph in their beautiful lives...someday i will fall in love again...there is someone missing me right now...sometimes i write to her, these things, i know she doesn't read them, and if she did she wouldn't understand them...maybe she is with someone else right now, learning, growing, becoming..yet uncertain...we will find each other, and this time i will not take it slow or fall in love too fast...but i will not take love lightly...when i have found her i will marry her...i will love her forever...i will be the best...cuz i know that she is the best....