I really dont care....

a quick post before i leave work to go out and wind down at the bar....i just wanted to say that i realize how i look sometimes...my ex called me a love martyr...i talked about that in other posts...sometimes i think i should rename my blog to "the longing for love"...i know it seems like all i write about...there are other things in my life...but this is where i put down the dark longing inside me that i dont express to anyone else...so now i am going to go out and think about anything else...cuz i know it wont be long until some other girl gets the pleasure of having me to wake up to...