stop...my heart cant take it....love is everything....

soooo.........i love you....i miss you....who the fuck are you....i came home tonight.....and am half a bottle of wine through....time is running out fast....time...i fucking hate time...there is never enough of it....and once it is gone you can never get it back....i hate it...because no matter what you do it keeps going....you cant stop it...you cant fast forward it....time flies when you are having fun and it comes to a stand still when you are miserable.....time hates you...time, fuck it...sooo....a year has passed....almost....and yet here you are...i am going to paris soon....i have to decide for how long....do i just give up my place here.....do i look for work in london for the olympics....do i go to Spain....

fuck this shit....in the end I am over this city....i want love...my life needs it....and i cant find it here....