i will, if she would have me,,,

So I push and I kick and I prod and I push again....
And then I cry and I hurt and I need and I push again...
I find the right button to get the right reaction...
to destroy anything that makes me happy...

But this time she stood by me...
She has done what no other person could do...
she was like a pin cushion to all me needles...
my needles of self hate and misery...

for every reason i give her to dump me...
She gives me another reason to fall in love with her...