How long should we keep doing this...

Kitchen nightmares and Restaurant impossible are fun shows....it is fun to watch others do what you do....to learn from their mistakes....it amazes me how simple it is and yet how dificult some people find running a place to be....but in the end you find that it comes down to some key requirements to success....one is passion, you have to care about what u r doing...two is drive, you have to be willing to be consistent in your passion, to do hard work your passion deserves...and three is technical knowhow, sometimes people fail just because they didnt know better....
You cant succeed without all three of those....and in every episode you find people who lack in all three of those....now if you want to be the best, you also need focus...to concetrate on a single passion....
I definitely have the passion, it is crucial in my work...the best service u get is from people who really care about what they are doing...it is not hard to take someones order and get them all that they need...but if u care, it is so much more than that...it's making sure the experience is perfect and people leave with a fond memory...that takes passion...it is fucking important...the truth is people deserve to be taken care of...a lot rides on meal time...relationships can be broken or made...especially yesterday....u screw up someones dinner and their life can change...the bad experience can linger through the night, and instead of getting laid, they are up all night fighting, and then they take the shity night to work and fuck up there, then before you know it everything snowballs and the couple are divorced homeless crackheads and it is all your fault....they could have had a great time, rekindled their love, decide to seek professional help, and go on to grow into very happy successful people...
There is so much more to say and expand on and share...but...this is frustrating...

I like that you tried....but here u are again...

Someone was saying that sucesful people have the ability to focus all their time and energy into one thing....people who can ignore social life, ignore family, ignore world maters, ignore personal hobbies, and everything else to focus on their thing....now not all people with this ability become sucessful, some are not so smart and fail at their goal or find out their goal didnt have a very sucessful outcome as they hoped....
But successful people seem to have that ability in common...for sure there are exceptions to the rule...but if you look at the top athletes, artists, politicians, entrepreneurs, insert anything here and add The Best at it, you will find someone that is awful at everrhing else in there life or at least most things...undeveloped social skills, neglected family, inability to take care of them selves, and most likely narcissism...
I am not like that......at all....so i wont ever be the best at anything....but for sure i will be fucking damn good at lots of shit....hopefully that will be enough...

I was just thinking about...well, everything...

When i was 16ish in school  we were discussing some book in english class ...and my teacher was very much into the idea that maintaining a status quo and fallowing it was the wisest thing to do when it came to society....this concept was widely agreed on in the class...and almost went without argument...except for me....i had to say something....i was the lone voice in expressing that the status quo is not always correct....

There are so many things in this small moment in my life that are crucial to who i am....

All sorts of candy fun....

Did you get my memo....

Ten more minutes on this buss to write a post....this buss is always filled with tourists and college kids....the kids are very annoying....such a waste of time on this buss....today is a day i wish i can fast forward through....i would rather get to the fun days....but work has to get done....i have to do something....it wont be easy....but it has to happen...i will....
I ran out of time and words...

put the one to the left in the front....

Yah i like this schedule...split days off...work my ass off for two days, hang out with friends, recover for a day, back to work for two days, and repeat....keeps my energy up...working 14hr shifts 6 days straight sucks...that what starts sat...as for now i have an after party to get to and a day off tomorrow to enjoy....

O and btw...youth is hard...i would never want to be 20 something again...i dont have it all figured out but thank Shit i know better than that....i still act dumb when it comes to love, but not nearly as dumb as that...i have learned...
I love you all...and i am always here for you...patient, accepting, caring....

I could do better....

I like this idea for today....the idea that i have tomorrow off...my days off are broken up this week...right now it feels good....this girl was in the restaurant today...she had beautiful eyes i couldnt help but keep looking....i rarely find people that attractive....later on another girl came in who had that sexual fire you cant ignore...years ago i would have taken her home....
Cool this guy just got ob the train that has alepecia...i think thats what its called...he has no hair
Things are getting crazy....the matrix is shrinking....i have met u already....so why dont we know each other...

What do I want you to read about now....

So i am becoming more and more detached from my place in castro these days...one of my bigest regrets in life is not moving out if sacramento sooner....and now that mistake has taken 8 years of my life....but i will not do that again...i spend little time in my home...and that is great....i love this city....it has so much to do and see....and i am having fun working on that list of shit i always wabted to do here....but the more i do, the more people i meet...the more i know i have to leave....

Today is a great day for a mani pedi....wonder if i can find time to get one done....so much to do today....so much i wish i could have shared with you....so sad....but whatever....
I believe in god...i believe that there are things i will never understand....i know my life has not been wasted....my time has been spent sharing and being there for others...i am happy to be a step in your life....the best thing i do is open doors for people...to support those in need and to guide those that are lost....i dont have your answers...but i can help you find them in you....
There is no predetermined fate or destiny or kharma....none that i can understand....but i try to be a good person, honest, trustworthy, fair and kind, accepting of others and myself, responsible, sharing and giving, patient, humble, and to be content but not complacent.
That last part is hard....i want so much....i have tried an tried and failed....and i dont know how to make some things happen....and i let it get to me...bring me down...

Just be myself.....i guess...something  always happens...ultimately i will die...and so will you and all this shit will no longer matter....the world will keep going without us...that is a happy thing.

And now this.....

Oh hell yah it is.my friday....just finished six days of shity work and now it is time to have fun...i must say vacation rocks....keeps the body going....and now i am about to go see my friends and have a great time....

Leonel told me to...

It is fucking wed....i have lots to say...so much has happened and yet not really into putting it here....so whatever.