A tragic case of logorrhea

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Waitin for Muni...on my way to work...
I thought about her a lot morning...
I wish things were diferent...
I know the love between us is over...
I send her msgs as if magic will take them to her...
But here is the last post I will put concerning her for awhile...
I miss her...but I deserve better...

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fooled once, fooled twice, fooled too many times,,,

does this make sense...

i love someone who wants what the rest of the world doesnt understand...
i will point out how you want what the rest of the world wants..
because everyone wants the same things...
so i know what you want...
and i know i am not what everyone wants...
so i know you dont want me...
just show me once till i believe you...you are what the rest of the world doesnt understand...
like me.

then i will never ask again.

Ok...so maybe this was the last place I should be...
Or...I found the last place I should be but can't be there...
And I think there is one thing I should be doin...
I wish choosing love was an option...
But all I have left is my future...
If only she loved me so much she set me free...
I kick ass...someday someone will kick ass with me...
There r 2 kinds of entertainers...those who
Love the atention and those who love the affection...
And then those who don't entertain...
u can call me anytime...just say hej...

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Monday, June 13, 2011

Good Morning Snygging!

That's what i would love to say to her if she called me tonight...

I keep thinking about her...

i need to stop that...
i still haven't changed my flight yet...
i keep thinking i will be happy...
she will call and we will talk and our souls could chat...

and then i could say, have a great day, hej då älskling.

My heart is in San Francisco....

I love days off...at least i used to...now my room is filled with memories...i would spend the whole day talking to her...i once was with her all day and night singing songs and playing guessing games...the long talks made it easier to not miss her actually being here...(i still sleep with my laptop on, its comforting)...but you cant keep that kind of communication up...eventually the time difference and responsibilities catch up...no more long talks, and being apart seems so much more real, and hard...all the same we managed to enjoy the little time we had...i miss those long talks most on these days off when i have the time for them...i learned a long time ago the importance of making time for the ones you love...it is hard, calls for some sort of sacrifice at times...but when you love someone its never really that much of a question...She was there for me, that's how i knew she loved me...also, in the end, how i knew she didnt...

I wait for a women, a real women, strong, independent, caring, giving, tough, supportive, and demanding, and who knows what is real...I thought i had found her...

Until she reappears in my life somehow, i will continue to try and grow into the man she needs me to be...hopefully she is good at writing BP's cuz i cant seem to get the thoughts in my head down on paper just right...so easy here but when it comes to real stuff...i can never stop rewriting...which is what i am going to get back to doing now...no more distractions blog...

Lazy Monday...

So I was going to watch The Apartment today…the last movie I wanted to watch with my Swedish darling…but then I realized I have already seen it…i have a slight crush and Shirley MacLaine…so I am downloading Career instead…about a man choosing between Love and his career…I bet he chooses Love and gets both in the end...