The other day at the beach...

Ohio here I come...

Fun in Oakland...

Last night....shit happened....
talking to my Ohio girl...

Royalty featuring Birthday boy Ronnie on bass...


Me sneaking into the pic with Jessi and Maria...
Posing with some lovely ladies.....

Things to do today: - feel loved...check

So after Mecca closed I hit a strange bottom...not like any I had before...it wasnt cuz I lost a job or had my heart broken....no I was getting paid and my heart was sleepin contently....it wasnt cuz my ball of string was getting out of control and the laundry list of neglected responsibilities were overwhelming my life...although the string was unraveling...no i was having serous panic attacks from plain old boredom and stress about the unknown future of everything...i had no idea when or if I would work again...my band was going nowhere...and my love life was down to a frequent uninteresting booty call...
Then it happened...without warning or expectation...I found my soul mate...no...seriously...I found someone who is perfect in every fucking way...i was tripping over my lethargic life...suffocating under the uncertainty of everything...when I looked down...down from my stoop and saw an angel carrying the end of my string...winding it up and bringing it to me...unbeknown to her...she has already changed my life...ounce i was a red tie in a closet of brown suits...i wondered what person in their right mind would accept someone who shit talked as much as I do...someone as cynical and consistently sarcastic as I am...and yet i make her happy...just by doing what makes me happy...everything I ever thought about love and settling down and finding a lover has changed...I though I had experience in falling in love..knowledge about making a relationship work...well its all bullshit...the rules have changed...those past waves dont compare...this ocean I am swimming in is endless...I know Ive only known her for about a month...but you just cant know what Im talking about until you know for yourself...I feel like I am in a dream...and I fucking hope I never wake up...

4th of July in SF

SO I watched the works from a house in the Castro hills...the view of the city is amazing...but as for watching the works it was ok...here's some pics...

sorry boys...........and girls....

I'm done...nothing fucking matters anymore...life is a series of stages...its a skill you learn through the years..living...at first your some young tike...you learn to crawl...falling on your face dragin ass here and there and once you getit down some fuck pulls you by the pits and makes you stand...then walk...then run..then ride a bike..then your falling in love and...

every move you make is scary as shit...leaving all that was understood and mastered..."I HAD THAT CRAWLING SHIT DOWN, now you make me STAND!!!" oh shit this is scary...then you do it and you master it then you move onto the next...

where are you...what stage of life are you mastering...what stage are you afraid of moving onto...remember the last stage you where in..how scary it was at first...you know that feeling when something new hits you that you had no idea about...you think "I'M CRAWLING HERE AND IT GETS ME TO AND FRO SO GOOD...WHAT ARE YOU FUCKS WALKING FOR, THIS IS THE SHIT"...then some fuck makes you stand and its scary at first...but then you start walking...and then running...when was the last time you crawled...drunk as fuck because you lost your steps...You know it...moving on is good for you..growing is good for you...what you thought was life before is now moved on to a new stage that you had no idea existed...I thought I knew what a love connection was...i thought i was in love before...I think i just stood up......................scary as shit....i am loving it...